on the fun side: more reading; painting and drawing; fixing up my house; spending more time with my family and friends; going outside
on the not-so-fun but necessary side: cleaning my house; exercising; finding a job that pays me more than a pittance so that we can take some vacation time and do things that J likes doing.
I'm so lucky that J supports what I'm doing, but despite his reassurances, I hate that we can hardly ever do anything because I don't have a full-time job. It makes me see my writing as a selfish indulgence because it is going nowhere. And my indulgence penalizes him.
I know what I need: a schedule and the discipline to stick to it. A way of using my time more wisely with some of it put aside to take care of myself. I think that if I had a little more balance in my life, the money issue wouldn't be that big of a deal because I wouldn't feel like I was failing in so many other ways *plus* that.
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on the not-so-fun but necessary side: cleaning my house; exercising; finding a job that pays me more than a pittance so that we can take some vacation time and do things that J likes doing.
I'm so lucky that J supports what I'm doing, but despite his reassurances, I hate that we can hardly ever do anything because I don't have a full-time job. It makes me see my writing as a selfish indulgence because it is going nowhere. And my indulgence penalizes him.
I know what I need: a schedule and the discipline to stick to it. A way of using my time more wisely with some of it put aside to take care of myself. I think that if I had a little more balance in my life, the money issue wouldn't be that big of a deal because I wouldn't feel like I was failing in so many other ways *plus* that.
Ok, end of whining session...