Donkeys, Day 13

[wayfaringwordhack]

We've been having rolling blackouts almost every night, and because I can't seem to get my act together and do my illustrations during the day, I haven't had the will or energy to do them when the power finally comes back on. Good thing I am not doing a 30 Consecutive Days of Donkeys Challenge. :P

Tonight I decided to sketch by the light of a headlamp. The electricity came back just now, at 10 p.m., and I don't feel like doing another version.

Donkey, charcoal

 

Comments

[asakiyume.livejournal.com]

How are you *feeling*? Are you better? You sound down :-(

This guy is very sweet and looks almost more watercolor-like than charcoal like. I like his gentle look.

[mnfaure.livejournal.com]

How are you *feeling*? Are you better? You sound down :-(

Alas, I need to head to bed. But I wanted to say that I'll answer this more fully tomorrow. *hugs*

[mnfaure.livejournal.com]

I don't know what is going on with me. I've been on the verge of sick for days now. It is getting more than old, it is downright tiresome. Tired. Yes. There is a word. As I told May the other day, i wish that if I am to get sick, I wish I'd just get it and get it over with. In the meantime, I feel not-so-great but not terrible either. Maybe it is the weather (days are getting hotter...and are always dry) or the pollution.

The tiredness plays a part in my low morale, I know, but I just haven't felt that chipper lately because I feel like a slouchy slob in terms of Getting Stuff Done. While I should be happy that I've set myself a challenge and am rising to it, I dwell instead of all the other stuff that I Need. To. Get. Done. When I think about other people who have more than one kid and a full time job (outside of the home) who still get their house stuff AND creative stuff done, I feel like such a loser.

Of course, I tell myself that comparison games or guilt games do not serve anyone, but I just can't kick the stress of it. I'm trying, though. The best remedy is to keep doing. I think. :P

[asakiyume.livejournal.com]

I know these feelings--I especially know the business about comparing yourself to others and then feeling lower than low. That part of it I feel is where depression snakes in--or maybe that's a sign that depression already has snaked in; I don't know. I really think of that mindset as being like a devil, like the demons in The Snow Queen who make beautiful things look awful. "My salt has lost its flavor"--they do that, too.

I know you've lived all over, so you've probably experienced this--but being in a new place can make you vulnerable to new ailments, and maybe this grumbling physical malaise is your body strong enough to not let you succumb fully ... but not let you be better, either. But that's not all: you're also in a new place emotionally--could it be that you're lonely? Or, maybe not lonely, but isolated?

... And the stress. If you can think of some thing that you're always berating yourself to get done, but that you have a hard time doing, maybe because it's tedious--find that thing, and don't do it anymore! I have given up on bunches of things that people "should" do, because I just couldn't do them and everything else. Some of them I re-picked up later. Others, not.

... But I'll stop with advice, because advice just sucks sometimes. Maybe most times. Mainly what I want to say is, I hate that you're feeling low, both physically and emotionally. I wish we were actual neighbors IRL :-\

[mindseas.livejournal.com]

I'm behind on my donkey comments since I was out of town without internet... but this donkey, to me, looks like the philosopher donkey, the wise sorcerer donkey. He's extremely intelligent, and perhaps just a bit above it all.