I will not be derailed
19 May 2022 03:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wayfaringwordhack After doing a great job meeting all my art goals, I had a rough beginning to this week, starting with a stomach bug and um, all that ensues. This is exactly the sort of thing that comes along and totally knocks me off track when I set myself a certain goal.* When one has work or school, say--some outside entity holding one responsible for work accomplished--it is easy (easier) to look at what needs to be done and get back to doing it. I always lack that with my personal goals.
Now that I am better, I am going to dust myself off and get back at it. I think that "Ok, what did I miss and what do I need to make up?" has been missing from these derailing incidents in the past. Not the looking at it and seeing what needs to be done,** but the attitude of "outside entity" and treating my projects with the same respect I would treat a friend's or employer's projects.
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* I have been doing stuff but not the stuff I said I would do, thereby assuaging any feelings of failure. This might read like I am coming down hard on myself, but that is not what I am getting at. I am trying to understand the psychology of how I drift away from doing the thing I said I would do; how it is that one day I look up and say, "Hey, wasn't I supposed to be doing X? Whatever happened to Y intention?"
** I almost always look and often feel overwhelmed by a sense of "being too far behind," whereas what I want to cultivate is the idea that accountability to and respect for myself is valid and deserves my follow-through.
Now that I am better, I am going to dust myself off and get back at it. I think that "Ok, what did I miss and what do I need to make up?" has been missing from these derailing incidents in the past. Not the looking at it and seeing what needs to be done,** but the attitude of "outside entity" and treating my projects with the same respect I would treat a friend's or employer's projects.
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* I have been doing stuff but not the stuff I said I would do, thereby assuaging any feelings of failure. This might read like I am coming down hard on myself, but that is not what I am getting at. I am trying to understand the psychology of how I drift away from doing the thing I said I would do; how it is that one day I look up and say, "Hey, wasn't I supposed to be doing X? Whatever happened to Y intention?"
** I almost always look and often feel overwhelmed by a sense of "being too far behind," whereas what I want to cultivate is the idea that accountability to and respect for myself is valid and deserves my follow-through.
Oh, drat you, not trickable Brain!
Date: 19 May 2022 04:12 pm (UTC)Exactly! No form of "tricking" myself has ever worked. :P